It is time to continue my story about my India travels. If I have kept you waiting, I am sorry. I am currently learning Ayurveda at Vedic Treat in Bangalore. I will tell you about my room mate, my learning experience and much more later.
The first day at felt like three days combined in one day. It was so much more hot than I expected. Packing had quite the challenge since my mother taught me well – always be prepared for change of weather. And too many times where I’ve been freezing my ass of. If you know me personally, you know how I really, really dislike being cold.
4 weeks of arranged self study
Being that close to other people from 5.30 am to 8 pm is a challenge for most people, also me. It is amazing how far I have come. This would not have been an option a year ago. I am happy things have changed.
Everyone went through their own darkness and emotional turmoil. Some were struggling with the pure amount of knowledge we had to process, some were frustrated of the level of the asanas we learned, some were missing home, and some were just there to have a look inside themselves and that was terrifying enough. No matter what the previous expectations, I am quite sure that everyone had quite an experience with themselves.
Classes were 6 days a week. The amount of asana, the sattvic food, kriyas, pranayam and meditation made a deep impact on my body as well as my mind. I come from many years of moderate to severe illness. I was still not recovered fully. I hoped India would help me. I was right.
My mother stayed with me for 10 days.
Why my mother came with me
I lived with her since April 2014 due to being unemployed. My dad had passed away almost 10 months prior to our trip. It was a good way of parting our ways since we both knew that I would most likely stay in India. Which I did. 14 months more.
She was liked by many of the people in the course, which of course made me immensely happy, since I was not very good at taking care of her. Not that she needed it at the time. If I ever wonder where I get my independence from, I’ll just look at her. A true wild woman with the heart in the right place. So thankfully she was able to take care of herself, as she has a good trait that I am developing – asking others for help.
Ohhhh, I thought I dealt with that!
What has been a commonly recurring topic in my life since Rishikesh started in these four weeks. And I think others had the same experience.
Since and during my stay Rishikesh lots of issues popped back into my life. I am not only talking about old acquaintances that I thought were over, no also old patterns.
These old patters are sneaky. They show up in such a way where I have only one way – dealing or acknowledging I need to deal. Letting go. That is my practice.
Oh, my ego is in the way
At my first teacher training in Denmark I was so asana obsessed that I hurt my hip in the pursuit of lotus pose (padmasana).
Somehow same same but different happens in Rishikesh. During our intense physical classes I progress. Quite a lot. I was in quite good shape already on the asanapart.
I end 200 hours of looking inside myself
Our course ended with a bang. We had an absolute blast of a certificate ceremony. I did not stay too late, as I was exhausted and knew I had 5 more weeks to go.
During the ceremony I felt awkward. It was weird not getting a certificate.
To be continued.